What if the person you grew up loving and respecting is suddenly thrown into a new light? Suddenly, they’re not so perfect, so flawed, so disagreeable. What do you do then? Do you shun them, abhorring them like you should be? Or continue to kowtow to them, just like you’ve always done, simply because they deserved your respect?


If that person wasn’t my mother, my father, my uncle, my grandmother, my sir... I would spit on their faces sometimes.

It is 12.06 a.m. as I write this rant. I have been out since 8 a.m. the previous day, serving people at college, going to Taekwondo to handle administration, then off to dance. And when I come back, I’m still sorting out Taekwondo admin stuff. Why? Because my collection before I left tallied perfectly, while the ones that were done after, didn’t.

Incompetent asshole.

And you have the nerve to tell me ‘Thank you Aileen... Goodnight’ in your little lilting sarcasm laced voice? Like what? I’m trying to challenge you? So go on living in your little great world where everything you do is right and ignoring criticism is awesome. Why did I ever bother listening to your preaching?

Melayu.

Yeah, when I’m angry, I’m a racist. Whatever man. I’m an angry angsty teenager, so sue me.

What if the person you grew up loving and respecting is suddenly thrown into a new light? Suddenly, they’re not so perfect, so flawed, so disagreeable. What do you do then? Do you shun them, abhorring them like you should be? Or continue to kowtow to them, just like you’ve always done, simply because they deserved your respect?


If that person wasn’t my mother, my father, my uncle, my grandmother, my sir... I would spit on their faces sometimes.

It is 12.06 a.m. as I write this rant. I have been out since 8 a.m. the previous day, serving people at college, going to Taekwondo to handle administration, then off to dance. And when I come back, I’m still sorting out Taekwondo admin stuff. Why? Because my collection before I left tallied perfectly, while the ones that were done after, didn’t.

Incompetent asshole.

And you have the nerve to tell me ‘Thank you Aileen... Goodnight’ in your little lilting sarcasm laced voice? Like what? I’m trying to challenge you? So go on living in your little great world where everything you do is right and ignoring criticism is awesome. Why did I ever bother listening to your preaching?

Melayu.

Yeah, when I’m angry, I’m a racist. Whatever man. I’m an angry angsty teenager, so sue me.